ah, so i finally have time to blog and my mind is blank.
guess i’ll start with the fact that things seem to be better with the bf – he’s back to trying to quit smoking and doing quite well. we’ve had some pretty serious conversations about “us” lately – marriage, babies, “the future” and the fact that if any of those things are gonna happen i need his catholic mother to know ahead of time that i’m not down with the catholic faith and those imaginary babies won’t be either. all of that is brought on by the christening we attended for the bf’s nephew this weekend. it just got under my skin to sit there and hear that priest hold that precious, beautiful child and say over and over again how he was “unclean with original sin”. i’m sorry but i think that baby (all babies) are perfect – no sin – clean slate. hell, i do my yoga practice just to be like that sweet being!
ANYWAY….
the conversation about babies was good because he knows i want them someday but he has apparently been freaking out that i want them much sooner than he would be ready for. and yes, it’s hard when my friends are getting married and having babies (or at least planning for it) and i feel that anxious little thing creep up in my belly. i kind of wish it didn’t because i’m not ready yet either. so, i’m thinking of it more as an awakening… a “head’s up” so i can at least think about it… and we can talk about it. and maybe in a few years i’ll be ready and he won’t be so freaked out.
my guy friend claims that no man think’s he’s ever really ready and that they think of it as the ultimate gift they give to the woman they love…. until they are a part of the miracle of birth and then it all comes home when they see the face of their own child. i don’t know if that’s true but it was interesting to consider.

teaching is going well. got a new client amazingly enough! she inquired about lessons via email and i wrote back saying my schedule was super full but i could offer her these two days at these two times (thinking the chances were slim she’d be available for them) and she said “great, i’ll take them!” so i’ve added her on twice a week. very nice woman – very high powered – and extremely rich (like the kind that allows her to have an outwardly beautiful and immaculate life and makes me a little nervous if i have a hair out of place). haven’t quite felt her out just yet… we’re still getting aquainted but i think she’s a good person and means well. she confuses me though because one of the things she stressed in our first lesson was how she really needed to get away from the physical (she has a personal trainer for that) and delve into the more meditative and spiritual side yet she’s said several times since then that i can “push her more” and she seems to be really attracted to the fancier postures… hum?….. one good thing is that she is really eager for me to help her learn the sanskrit names and so i’m having to freshen up on those!